I have a confession to make. I'm bisexual.
And people say there's nothing worse than having a crush on a straight girl, but they're wrong. The worst thing is having a crush on a queer girl, a girl who's gay or bi or pan, a girl who's a member of your ultra tiny female dating pool. And you know they don't want you, they couldn't be with you, you don't have a chance with them, and you never did. That's the worst thing.
The worst thing is seeing them in the arms of someone who isn't you, seeing them kiss and cuddle with someone who isn't you. Seeing them have someone who isn't you on their lockscreen, share smoothies with someone who isn't you.
The worst thing is when you've had months upon months to prepare your heart for the pain of this moment, and you thought you were - but you never could be.
Love,
Waverly
it's been forever, so if you remember me, it's Emily :) I don't blame you if you don't.
ReplyDeleteBut,
I'm so sorry, love. I completely understand where you're coming from: I'm bi also and I have to say it completely and utterly sucks. I've had a crush on my best friend and, although she doesn't label herself, she's had a girlfriend. But I know she doesn't like me, she likes some kid in her bio class. It's sad isnt it, the way these things go?
anyway, this was a while ago so maybe things are better now?
-Emily